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Finally, I got the chance to have a Neuro-psychological test. I went to a hospital that is up to date on new technology. A very high rated Neurology Department in Philadelphia Pa.
I was completely disappointed after all the testing and interaction with the neuro-psychologist was finished.
It seems they were using those stupid Coma tests on me. ( the old tests originally designed a million years ago to measure brain injury by how long you were unconcious for. ) I find these test are completely useless.
What if you were fighting to stay awake? I fought to stay awake. In my accident, I was so scared because, I had no idea who was behind me, ( I was on a dark road with nobody around, I had no idea where I was )
I stayed on the line with the 911 operator, she told me to keep talking to her until the police came and try to fight to stay awake. I don't blame anyone for that at all. I fought to stay awake. When the police came. I still wanted to go to sleep, I was in a such a daze. I don't remember anything I talked about let or what happened when my car was hit by this drunk driver.
However, me fighting to stay awake gets measured on some stupid hand written coma test.
I was maybe an hour into testing when I was taking into the neuro-psychologist's office. The Doc did physical tests and pointed out my balance was horrible. Along with my short term memory. A simple eye test which made me lose my balance, dizzy and sick to my stomach.
I was asked what my education was by the guy doing the test. I told him I have Bachelors Degree. I was a C.P.A. I felt humiliated. I thought I was doing okay with the test. Besides, I didn't think this was a test you passed or failed. I thought it was supposed to show me what kind of therapy I needed to heal. Not to point out that I am stupid now. A test to show what kind of therapy I needed.
I left there feeling defeated and obviously I was going to have to re-learn everything myself. Apparently my trauma is not horrible enough.. It made me very angry. A TBI is horrible.
Which leads to me thinking everyone's trauma is different and extremely traumatic. All of us have lost time in our lives. Very precious time. Time we deserve back, pay we deserve to have, lives we deserve to live, therapy we deserve to have. So, we can go back to our lives, families and to work. We don't get that and I think that's terrible.
Alot of our injuries are left unfixed. In my case I have a bunch of treatment centers around me. I need physical therapy, cognitive therapy, and occupational therapy. I may not get any treatment.. That sucks!!!
I have come to realize that no matter where you live your just supposed to deal with this and just suck it up like its a skinned knee. You may not get help for your TBI. That makes me sad to think about. Its simply not our fault that we sustained a TBI..
Seems like you learn something new everyday and it at times makes me wonder a million different things, mainly. Why did I survive may car accident? also Am I happy I am still alive?