There had been three important people very close to me,

That had died several years ahead of me that I got to see.



Some call it a near death experience, it occasionally happens when we die,

I got a hug from all three, yet they told me I must come back and said good-bye.



I remember telling them how tired I was, they said that they already knew,

They told me there were very important things God still needed me to do.



I felt disappointment as I had to…

There had been three important people very close to me,

That had died several years ahead of me that I got to see.



Some call it a near death experience, it occasionally happens when we die,

I got a hug from all three, yet they told me I must come back and said good-bye.



I remember telling them how tired I was, they said that they already knew,

They told me there were very important things God still needed me to do.



I felt disappointment as I had to…

I am watching your face,

I listen closely to your words.

I think I know the answer,

But I wait and watch; just in case.



Friends all say that I look the same,

They say that must mean I am fine.

I smile and nod and play the game,

It is easier to just pretend.



But the truth is I must try very hard,

Or they will know I am not the same.

They are fearful of that knowledge,

So I continue to play the game.



Their ignorance makes me…

There is entirely too much noise,

there is no way I can possibly last.

I am trying very hard to understand,

but the world is moving way too fast.

Soon there will be nothing but a blank screen,

so forgive me if I cannot say the right word.

No matter how many times this happens,

I know it is real, even if others think it is absurd.

It is like not having cable on your television,

there are only a couple of channels that I can use.

If…