Good Morning All,
Well, I've finally have gotten to the point where I am tired. Tired of pretending, avoiding situations and making excuses for my lack of memory.
When I was 3 (1970), my Grandfather found me at the bottom of his pool as he came home from work. I was unconscious and thru CPR he brought me back. Know one knows how long I was at the bottom of this pool. My entire life since then has been a "brain squeeze" - Yes, I did manage to graduate and even go to college, but day to day stuff....forget about it. Last week..... not going to happen. If we had a conversation, unless it was really profound, intense or evoked a emotion, it's gone. :(
I remember very little ( and I think I only remember because of photographs) of my childhood.
Before I surrendered to the fact that it may be from the drowning, I asked my mother if "something happened traumatic to me as a child? ( kidnapped or abused??)
I scored "mild" on the ADD test from my shrink, Thinking that maybe I just wasn't paying attention to my life??
This is so frustrating and embarrassing for me. I absolutely hate it. I find myself avoiding people or conversations for fear of someone bringing up a previous conversation or an event that we shared.
It's as if I'm floating thru life.
I'm not sure what to do next. I'd love to have a scan to get a good look and some confirmation of what is going on. - Not sure how to make that happen either?
Thanks for letting me vent :)