Good Morning All,

 Well, I've finally have gotten to the point where I am tired. Tired of pretending, avoiding situations and making excuses for my lack of memory.

When I was 3 (1970), my Grandfather found me at the bottom of his pool as he came home from work. I was unconscious and thru CPR he brought me back. Know one knows how long I was at the bottom of this pool. My entire life since then has been a "brain squeeze" - Yes, I did manage to graduate and even go to college, but day to day stuff....forget about it. Last week..... not going to happen. If we had a conversation, unless it was really profound, intense or evoked a emotion, it's gone. :(

I remember very little ( and I think I only remember because of photographs) of my childhood.

Before I surrendered to the fact that it may be from the drowning, I  asked my mother if "something happened traumatic to me as a child? ( kidnapped or abused??)

I scored "mild" on the ADD test from my shrink, Thinking that maybe I just wasn't paying attention to my life??

This is so frustrating and embarrassing for me. I absolutely hate it. I find myself avoiding people or conversations for fear of someone bringing up a previous conversation or an event that we shared.

It's as if I'm floating thru life.

I'm not sure what to do next. I'd love to have a scan to get a good look and some confirmation of what is going on. - Not sure how to make that happen either?

Any Suggestions?

Thanks for letting me vent :)



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its about setting up systems and accomadations to close the gaps so things get remembered it is making a new habbit which takes time but my memory sucks and thanks to my iphone and google i dont miss a beat but it took me a long time to have a system to get all of what i need to do in my calander but if i can do it anyone can good luck and keep fighting for what you need
we are who we are and must learn to live our lives i wish you luck in you journey


I work with my memory lapses by telling people that I have memory problems due to an injury. I have found out that this works pretty well.


Abbie has a good suggestion about setting up reminders for everyday events/appointments.


I wish you well.

Hello Heidi,

My thoughts are with you!  I can't imagine having this memory issue from such a young age.  It's almost like what am I suppose to remember.  3 years old, wow!  I was in a coma for 4 months with encephalitis and menangitis at 43.  The neurologists said I would probably never wake up and if I did would never get out of bed.  Well, the power of the spirit is beyond anything anyone truly knows I believe.  And, I have had to relearn to walk, talk, read, write and just think about what is in front of me.  I am currently reading "You Can Heal Your Life" by: Louise L. Hay.  Just one of many books that help with the power of the spirit.  Authors like Deepak Chopra, Marianne Williamson and Wayne Dyer are just a few.  We all worry too much about how others think of us and truly my friend, it is a waste of time.  Every single human being is a part of this great planet and connected to a path of life.  I wish you all the best.  I am dealing with addiction issues and it's truly been challenging yet as they say "One Day At A Time"  Take care, Vicki

thats why we are called the hidden or silent epidemic


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