Emotional Abuse from Parents since childhood

[John Donne]

I'm 32 and i live with my parents and they constantly arguing/fighting.

but it's not just talking. They cry they throw stuff and things.

And i'm so scared i wanna die. they always do it. like now they fighting about money.

And when they fight then there's no happniess and my heart and head hurt. I can't take it anymore i wanna die and there's no way out because i dont have a house or job .

Ive always been a scared person after the TBI and im senstitive and my parents don't care they just fight and argue. and i'm not good at speaking so i can't even talk to them like a grown son to stop them from fighting.

my father is abusive cause he's from the ranch type of latin family where they all macho and families live with emotional abuse always.

My father throws things, breaks things and i'm so scared

i really dont want to be here.

But since i'm disabled and don't have maturity, i have no way to move out. I dont' even know what i could do. Just go to the streets and be homeless?

LIke i said their fighting goes up and down: Sometimes they're fine, sometimes they fighting but all this BS has hurted me alot in my life. That's one of the reason i'm a scared person cause there's alot of abuse in my home.

I also fear if they kill themselves or they die because of high blood pressure etc due to arguing, or sudden heart attack because they always angry.. and if that happens then my house will be unpaid, then i would be kicked out and to the streets

[Paula L Florentine]

Hello John,

You will never be in the street. I had parents like that growing up too. You will have a place to live-I promise this to you even if I have never spoken to you-here is my Yahoo ID. it is [e-mail]-plz feel free to talk to me on there. John, I can help you with SSD Disability and life. Your new friend, Paula in Spirit Lake, Idaho