I recently gave my email address to someone who doesn't know about my TBI yet. I planned to carefully fill him in. Then I Google searched the email address & this site was the 1st thing that popped up. I've never been ashamed of my injury until now.
As I continue to heal I find myself disassociating with this community. Because it is an invisible injury and I have no physical issues, the smile behind the glossy photos can pass as just another girl. I find myself striving to rejoin the Just-Another-Girl community and identifying less with the victim-mentality that is so prevalent among we Survivors.
Sometimes it is good to step away from it all and try to live as "normal" life as possible. At what point do you star a conversation or have a whole conversation without saying you have a TBI? I think the fact that you don't want to have a victim mentality is a GOOD thing, however there is nothing wrong with wanting support from those who understand as well. Don't feel bad that you want to heal and move forward with your life. Take care and hang in there!
It's truly exciting to see the active dialogue that my post has prompted. The update from here is that I'm all about employing strategies to help me problem solve. Here's what I've come up with:
-- I created another email address that is not associated with any TBI correspondence, to regain the control of telling my prospects on my own terms.
-- I've been on NYU Langone hospital's wait list for psycho-therapy since January. I should have done this much sooner, but I'm taking my mental health into my own hands and have begun interviewing therapist outside of the hospital. I've made psycho-therapy a priority.
-- I appreciate Sherry's comment that I'm mourning the loss of "me" and agree that the three support groups I attend monthly here in New York City is very helpful, to be embraced by fellow survivors who understand firsthand what I'm going through.
Thanks all for your feedback, your compassionate words are appreciated,